Tuesday, March 31, 2009 / 2:02 AM
OH MANN...!ting is really excited to join the youth service and the west anniversary this saturday!
she is REALLY looking forward to it!
yeah! (:
i can see west b, i can see my darlings!
i can see all my beloved sheep, i can see my ex dmm.
because, i truly miss them all.
everything about them. (:
i really want to pray that my leaders will give a nod without much hassle.
wheee... =D
Monday, March 30, 2009 / 3:07 AM
PLEASE ME, NOT.i have plenty to say, but i am really sleepy.
it's already three in the morning and i have to wake up early tomorrow for breakfast and after which, remove the stitches!
humans are one complicated yet amazing creation.
that's why i must agree that only God is capable of this creation.
haha.
in the topic of expectations, it's like a dog chasing after it's tail; never ending.
when someone meets your expectation, you will expect more from that person the next time round.
i believe this is very familiar yeah?
for example, your parents expected you to have at least 50 marks for your test and when you got it, they will expect something more than 50 the next time round.
and if you got 50 once again, they will not react the same way as they do when you got it the first time, instead, they will get upset and claim that you are not improving and wants a better grade the next time round.
oh well, nothing wrong with that, seriously.
my point is, desiring to meet one's expectations is one thing, meeting it is another.
oh well, i felt that no one is at fault when it comes to this.
you cannot always expect your expectations to be met.
disappointments come when expectations are not met, isn't it?
however, it's not always that person's fault when you are disappointed.
could it be because you are always increasing your expectations unknowingly?
as for me, i am (still) learning how to handle unwanted disappointments mann.
i am kind of upset with myself for being too irrational at times.
it's really unfair for that person when he/she can't meet my ever increasing expectations.
sometimes, i really need to walk out of fairytales and know that there is simply no one who can meet every of my expectations, especially those unspoken ones.
(but do note that sometimes, adjusting of expectations are necessary.)
it's really amazing how a person can affect you.
awhile ago, you can be sobbing.
awhile later, you can be grinning from ear to ear.
but the truth is...
if there is such person in your life, having the ability or you can say, magic power to make you behave like an idiot; sobbing awhile ago, smiling awhile later and vice visa, this person is one very important person to you.
because the only ones that can swing your mood/day to the extremes are the ones that mean a lot to you, are the ones that you are seeking approval from and whom you love loads.
because you wouldn't even be affected when that someone means nothing.
i have such person in my life, do you?
i treasure that very someone, deeply.i have one serious illness.
i tend to find faults and pick flaws alot.
i always magnify on the flaws rather than strengths.
i tend to forget the good when i saw the bad.
i hope this is not a terminal illness yet, because i believe that there is cure for it.
cure my illness, my Lord. (:
ting is so determined to change in this!
controlling her thoughts well. (:
go go go! (:
Saturday, March 28, 2009 / 7:46 PM
BACK TO BLOGGING AGAINhello, i am back to blogging again.
HAHA, i know this is ridiculous...
like, setting up, closing down then set up again.
the truth is, ting has been keeping all her achieves somewhere, every single one of them.
all the way from my very first entry in 2003 till now. (:
frankly speaking, ting is one dilemmatic person.
i enjoy using words to tell the world my story... but on the other hand, i don't like people meddling into my personal life.
there are a handful of reasons why i set up this blog.
firstly, there are people bugging me to do so.
oh well, not that bad also, cause since i am no longer with the youth, i shall keep them updated with my life! (:
secondly, i am rotting at home!
i am stuck at home for 6 days already!
hey people, this is madness mann.
okay, i am sick and tired of explaining why am i stuck at home for so many days.
so just a brief one.
i had my wisdom tooth extraction on monday.
four of them at one go, yes.. FOUR!
i heard many testimonies about how horrible it is extracting four wisdom tooth at one go.
oh well, now that i experienced it.
it's indeed bad.
i cried and cried when the nurse woke me up when the operation is over.
yuppps, i had general anesthesia.
the experience of it is really amazing, cause one moment i was breathing in and out through a oxygen mask thingy, then the next moment i am already at the ward.
and i have no single drop of memory what happened in between!
okay, call me noobcake xD
the whole thing was so painful that i cried and cried when i gain my conscienceless!
the nurse even told me not to cry and comforted me.
okay, please forget i am already twentyONE T.T
and my face is so swollen, till now.
and i am having tummy upset and cough now.
okay, i can die already. HAHA.
i didnt eat for 3 days and i can finally start eating already.
ask me not if i have slim down or not.
my face is bigger, three times bigger.
please Lord, subside my swollen-ness, if there is such a word.
okay, i suspect that's not a brief one.
shall blog more if possible (:
don't need to expect anything too deep eh (:
i have one personal blog for your info, so two blogs for me.
hohoho.
later!
1. tings charis