my ♥ your home :)
1. tings charis
2. 黄詩婷
3. 19th September 1988
4. 23 years old
5. Pre-school Teacher
6. Hope Church Singapore
7. tingscharis@gmail.com
before you turn the door knob...
Greetings,
ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls
tings is really very proud to have you in her humble cyber world.
before you turn the door knob and enter into her world,
you may want to take a small note on what she is going to say here...
keep your fingers to yourself, do not judge.
tings is fully aware that this ain't behind any closed door
and hence, what you read is not what she is, totally.
read and go, do not make any conclusions on your own.
mere concerns are appreciated, anything beyond that line are not welcomed.
have grace and mercy upon her
she is indeed not as good as you think.
sign off, tings charis :)
OPEN IT, AT YOUR RISK.
Thursday, May 19, 2011 / 4:07 PM
everyone longs to fly out of where they are imprisoned in.
if only it was this easy.
the most terrifying prison is never the one that lock your physical self in, but rather the one that chain your mental self.
it just chills me right into the bone that sometimes, my longing for freedom has gave in to my mental prison.
the world outside this closet might be too much for me.
but than again, do i really want this forever?
what's in the closet, no one knows.
LOCK ME UP IN A BOX, PLEASE.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011 / 10:43 PM
Tummy hasn't been too friendly to me recently.
and all thanks to it, i had my virgin experience staying in the hospital for 3 days.
sadly, i do not have much good news to share, yet.
failed my driving test horribly.
i seriously have no idea i should laugh or cry.
maybe neither.
what torn me up the most is not the failure by itself, but my heart just stop beating for a second every time i think of the money and time that i am going to spend on it.
i ain't talented in driving, but i am so gonna let myself down if i were to give up like this.
though this is an oh-so-sweet temptation.
argh, can't wait to get driving out of my life.
i was telling my evil twin (my new found name for jency, haha) that i was really blind.
but the awful news is that, i was blind and now i am still blind.
HAHA.
objectively speaking, everyone loves beautiful things.
i am definitely a huge fan of it. :)
but i don't know what is wrong with me that i am so blind to eye for... haha no comments.
love is blind?
nah, i am not a believer of this.
i believe that love is never blind.
in fact, we have to open our eyes wide to choose.
the more i think about it, the more i find it hopeless.
the ray of hope seems smaller and smaller.
so i am still hoping and praying for God to open another door for me.
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because of my sickness, i have been neglecting work a lot.
i feel bad but i really do not know what can i do about it.
if there is a doomsday for me, i believe it might be my ptm this time round.
i haven't do my portfolio at all, die. :(
i wish i can just, fly away.
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the day came.
i finally see you.
i never want to see you again but God just made this happen.
i always thought that i will go bonkers if this day will ever come.
but it is just so amazing that i feel nothing at all.
this is not so scary after all, isn't it?
i am delighted, very delighted.
God, thank you for your divine intervention. :)
it must be you :)
i have gotten over you totally, i hope :)
though you have never left my mind but i guess i have already successfully chase you out of my heart :)
i overcame my fear of seeing you, just like that.
but one thing i can never fathom is how two very close people can be this distant.
i really feel like you are a stranger and i couldn't remember how it feels like to have you close.
THE ANSWER WAS ALREADY MADE KNOWN, LONG AGO.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011 / 12:51 AM
我想，我是真的爱上你了。
