1. tings charis
2. 黄詩婷
3. 19th September 1988
4. 23 years old
5. Pre-school Teacher
6. Hope Church Singapore
7. tingscharis@gmail.com


Greetings,
ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls
tings is really very proud to have you in her humble cyber world.
before you turn the door knob and enter into her world,
you may want to take a small note on what she is going to say here...

keep your fingers to yourself, do not judge.
tings is fully aware that this ain't behind any closed door
and hence, what you read is not what she is, totally.
read and go, do not make any conclusions on your own.
mere concerns are appreciated, anything beyond that line are not welcomed.

have grace and mercy upon her
she is indeed not as good as you think.

sign off, tings charis :)




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DEDICATED TO

YOURWILL

yes, light my way...
be the guide of my life, lead me.
unable to see what's ahead, not able to even comprehend future and whatever i am doing in the present.
but nonetheless, i need you, not only to lead me and open the way at the front line, i need you to guide me side by side.
make me feel secure, assure me.
i know that i am never alone...
i shouldn't live as if you are dead.
you are the comforter of all broken hearts, you are the prince of peace.
you love me even when i don't deserve a single drop of your mercy and grace.
you assure the insecure, you heal the sick.
you never leave nor forsake me and i know you wouldn't change like the shifting shadows.
you are a man of your word, you have the best plan for me.
even i would to lose everything in the world, i know i can never afford to lose you.

you always pick me up when i am down,
forgives me when i am wrong,
being faithful to me even when i am not,
giving me a second chance when no one else would,
entrusting things to me even when i am not worthy,
giving grace to me when i took it for granted,
singing love songs to me when i thought i am lonely,
encouraging me when i am discourage,
hah, so many to list...
when can i ever enter the fullstop?
anyhow, you are the best of the best.

i know my future is in your hands... and i am secured and safe.
i love you... lover of my soul..
i love you... my first love (:

it's never easy to have a breakthrough from a status quo.
it's never easy to choose one between two worlds, especially when both are so so dear to you.
sigh, i need you.

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random stuffs # 1:
败犬女王 is good!
i am falling in love with this show..
whooo-hooo!
random stuffs # 2:
school's starting in less than a week..
no prize for getting it right about how i am feeling now..
too bad.
random stuffs # 3:
i can't exactly find a job now cause i dun even know my school's timetable...
however, i already know what to do and who to contact..
once i know my bloody schedule on friday, i will call!^^
random stuffs # 4:
i am going to sleep now and it's 5:09am in the morning!
i need to sleep soon and go for a swim tmr!
i hope i can lose weight and my shoulder woundn't be so broad after all the swimmings ):
PS: my friends used to say i look like one rugby player due to my broad shoulders... argh, please... i have been swimming for God knows how many years... including this year which i started swimming again, it has been 9 years plus!
不像 rugby player 才怪 ! T.T

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GOOD NIGHT WORLD!
muacks*

How are you really, ting?
hah, this is one question i fear most and i term this one of the toughest question posted ever.
i am confuse too...
i am unsure if i am having tongue tied or i simply do not know how exactly i am.
how sad.
i hope i am putting enough effort to think how am i really and not avoiding anything.
sometimes, i tend to fear facing myself than anything else in the world.
am i the only one? please say it isn't so.

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on the lighter note, i am eating ton loads nowadays!
i wanted to post some photos but unfortunately, too unglamorous.
but thank you friends for your birthday treats!
and for the first time, david hoe treat me to a good meal !! (really good food yum yum)
no more duck rice and big bao!
lols!

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went to SIM open house today...
gotta discuss with mummy~




today, i was once again convcted about commitment and being faithful.
although love is the key to everything, for example strong family, forgiveness, relationships and the list goes on and on...
but as you guys know, love can only last when the element of commitment and faithfulness is there, isn't it?
it only take one to be uncommited and unfaithful, it's enough to break the whole family...
everyone is responsible of it, you can never imagine the hurts and pains caused to the innocent party when you choose not to be commited and faithful.
the society will turn chaotic when people are not commited and faithful; broken family, broken friendships, broken relationships etc.
hah, in the same way...
talking about anything and everything in life... be commited and faithful !
say for example, your cg...
be commited to your cg, becuase you can break the team up just because you are not commited and faithful!
you play an important role, darling (:

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talking about myself now...
i wouldn't deny that i am not feeling too good about everything...
c'mon, it's never a good feeling to be chased out by your own dad, am i not right?
i shall skip all my emo-emo feelings or whatever in my blog here, kay. (:
yes people, i am staying at my mum's place now...
my life took a big turn and everything changes.
i am still adapting and i am very sure that i will adapt well in time to come (:
i gotta support myself finacially now!
 
i am really thankful that many showered me with care and concern.. and also help (:
hah, thank you my friends!
but really, i am okay..
hahahaha.
honestly, i love being concerned by people but not too much eh..
so just be my listening ear, don't pity me, don't feel sorry for me.. alright my friends?
when i need help, i will voice out.. rest assured! (:
once again, thank you my friendsss (:

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i got a 'B' for my fyp 1...
i expected that but... i wonder why am i not happy about it ):
but nonetheless... thank God about it! (:
whee~
next week is the last week of holiday...
OH I AM SO RELUCTANT TO GO SCHOOL ):











hah, i am turning 21 soon...
gonna bid goodbye being a minor under law.
HAHAHA!

21 marks a significant step towards adulthood.
there's a silent pressure around when you reach this age.
nobody says anything, no obvious changes around...
but you know and you know...
it's not as simple as you think.
expectation rises, more freedom but more responsibilities as well.

welcome to adulthood, ting.
hah, i know i am not convincing enough.
oh well.

praying that everything will go on well tmr...
nothing will screw up and i will have a wonderful 21st (:
whoo~

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my toys say: WE ARE WEARING PINK AND PURPLE TO YOUR 21ST!






it suddenly dawn upon me that my life recently is just like the cinderella.
oh well, some minor but not so minor correction ; rather, the depressed one.
"why?" you might ask...
it's slightly shameful for me to say it but yeah, my dad would lock me out of the house if i am not home by midnight.
no prize for guessing it right about how would i feel when i see those threatening texts from my dad. 
you wouldn't want to know all the emotional traumas i am going through lately, i guess.
as for now, there's a tiny winy bit of improvement in the whole emotion traumas or at the end of one's rope feeling or whatever you can name it ; so a round of applause or it would be better, a stanging ovation.. come'on everyone.

cinderella wanna-be?
nah, not a suitable description about me ; i never have the desire to be a cinderella...
it's just that... i am the sad version of the cinderella.
neither did i become beautiful nor marry a prince.
i just need to be back when the clock strikes 12, that's all about the similarity, my friends.

i am not okay, i am sorry to say that.
but i can still survive and i am making a life changing decision.
i am weak, i am not (never) strong, but i will pull through... i hope.

i really don't feel like going...
i am really tired of it.
i need a change, soon.

my menses ain't coming...
almost 50 days already...
God, please let it come before camp.

no money for camp...
seriously.

i have been controlling my diet and swim almost everyday.
i cannot be fei ting for real =/

what's the best way to go without much burden and worries?