1. tings charis
2. 黄詩婷
3. 19th September 1988
4. 23 years old
5. Pre-school Teacher
6. Hope Church Singapore
7. tingscharis@gmail.com


Greetings,
ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls
tings is really very proud to have you in her humble cyber world.
before you turn the door knob and enter into her world,
you may want to take a small note on what she is going to say here...

keep your fingers to yourself, do not judge.
tings is fully aware that this ain't behind any closed door
and hence, what you read is not what she is, totally.
read and go, do not make any conclusions on your own.
mere concerns are appreciated, anything beyond that line are not welcomed.

have grace and mercy upon her
she is indeed not as good as you think.

sign off, tings charis :)




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DEDICATED TO

YOURWILL

boy i would have thought that,
when you left me i'd be broken,
with my confidence gone,
so gone.
hey boy i would have thought that
when you said that you don't want me
i'd feel ugly as if something was wrong

standin' in front of the mirror
my skin's never been clearer
my smile's never been whiter


I look so good without you
Got me a new hairdo
Lookin' fresh and brand new
since you said that we were through
done with your lies
baby now my tears dry
you can see my brown eyes
ever since you said goodbye

i look so good
i look so good without you
i look so good
i look so good without you

hey i never would have thought that
when you left me
i'd feel sexy and so good in my skin again
and i never would have known that
i'd be dreaming so much better
without you in my head

standin' in front of the mirror
my clothes never fit better
my laughs never been louder

i look so good
i look so good without you
i look so good i look so good without you

now baby my body's lookin' better than before
ain't biting my nails since you walked out of that door
i realize now i deserve so much more
than what you give
than what you give
than what you give ohhhh
















Sometimes i really wonder, what have i missed out in this world?
it has been such a long time since i spent time thinking.
it's a very dilemmatic thing here...
i want to be out of the box that i am in now but yet, i don't want to be out of it.
i guess this has always been the issue ya?

anyway, it seems like i haven't been spending enough time with my friends around.
i am such a lousy friend, a lousy friend that is always not available for the people around me.
and yet, there are so many people that treasures me in their heart.
what have i done to deserve this?
sigh.
other than my friends, i realised that i haven't been spending enough time with myself too...
when was the last time that i really sit down and think about my life?
all i could think of is just my work and studies.
it pretty hard to imagine myself being so nerd.
hahahaa.
probably cause my colleagues are all wonderful friends to me, that is why i enjoyed being a workaholic and a bookworm. HAHA

and the most horrible thing is....
i haven't been spending time with God.
sigh, i have neglected him so much in my life.
i am too concern about everything else except for him and his ministry :(
its not that i have forgotten all about God...
God has been always been in my mind...
it's just that i do not have the strength to do so.
it may sound like an excuse but it is very true, at least to me.
not only i am lack of physical strength, it is the same to my mental and spiritual strength as well.
God being real and almighty has already been very concrete in my heart..
so my issue will never be about me doubting him or so...
it is always been about spending more time with Him, doing life with Him and serving hard in His kingdom.

today this word "quiet time" was thrown right onto my face.
of all the sudden, i felt that this word WAS so familiar to me.
why is that so that i haven't been hearing this lately?
have i forgotten all about this already?
i think so.
oh my God, what is happening to me? :(

God, i must promise you that i will spend time with you everyday.
even in days that i am tired and everything.
i promised myself, i promised you and i promised him in the airport when he ask me to do so.
so i must honour my word.
help me, will you?

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today was a great day.
i hope that you have seen my effort.
we have known each other for about 6 years and we are very good friends.
but yet, i always tremble when i am with you.
how funny is it.
i wished that we can be more than friends and wished that there will be more to it.
i believe that you will be the one i can treasure with all my life and can help me grow in God.
you are one man that is after God's heart, you are very ambitious.
though i couldnt stand your attitude and how you do not value and appreciate the people around you, but yet you are one rare man that i respect and admire a lot.
because i believe that you are one righteous man.
i wondered if you are even touch when i offered to meet you and go all the way to the extreme end from my place, would you even appreciate?
haha, i am not being emo, but yeah.. i wished you will feel the same way as i felt.
i am not very outstanding and i am not your only choice.
but everytime, i am always secretly praying that miracle would happen.
it is the first time, the first time i felt so so so unworthy that if i could be treasured by you, it must be the greatest gift from God.
i suck to the max, but yet i hope for more.
how ironic. :(

God will work things out, i believe.
if it's not meant for me, then it's fine.
take it away from me.


Hello world!
i am finally taking a break from my nerdy plan!
hahaha!
i have successfully pulled through my portfolios and assignment!
although i have more assignments lining back to back, but i am still glad that the killer portfolios are kinda done! :)
before i proceed to talk about anything, let's meet my favourite guy above!
haha, no doubt that i am crazily in love with him!! :) <3s

talking about guys...
let me be so damn honest here...
can i?

i realised and i know that i have a damn high expectation on the man that i am going to be with.
i am really okay and would not be choosy when it comes to just hang out and be friends.
but if anything more than friend, i guess its fair for me to be choosy.
am i not right?
haha.

i was telling my colleagues yesterday...
it's not that i think i deserve any good man or i am so good that i have many choices...
but frankly speaking, looks are very important to me...
of course character are very important as well!
as in, whats the point of being so good looking but having a rotten character?
so, i am waiting for someone who has both looks and character.
this man doesn't need to be so damn good looking like lee min ho, but at least, his looks must be above average.
hahaa, am i a bitch being like that?

the one that i will marry must not be ugly.
must not be a laid-back person.
must not be a superstitious person...
must not be uneducated...
must not be poor...
and many more!

but the one thing he must have is...
A RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD :)
people who doesn't know how to love God won't be able to love me.
because i want to be close to God more than anything...
if this person drifts me away from God, i rather not marry him.

so, this has been on my thoughts lately.
HAHAHA!
laugh for all you want.
i am just being real.

and yes, i am so damn scared of anyone being too good to me if i am not their friend.
man are jerks that uses their dick to think and not their head.
thats what i truely think.
its not easy to gain my trust towards man.
that is why i have damn high expectations.
i know i am unworthy but still...
argh anyway, i will wait for the right one that uses their head and heart, not only dicks.
i want to meet someone who is not bad looking, with good characters, loves God and me!
so if i were to meet one, i promise to treasure him with my life. :)
that's all folks! :)

i am meeting someone that doesn't belong to the category of man that i dislike and won't consider later.
but ya lar, i am thinking too much cause i somehow don't deserve good man.
anyway...
*heart-shape heart-shape eyes*
HAHA!

















before i tug myself into my cozy messy bed in such a wonderful weather...
i shall steal some time to blog! :)
oh well, as most of you might know...
i am into my 'nerdy' plan.
hahaha!
i have decided not to play or hangout only after 18 november!
i have many many things on hand that are not done and yes, time is catching up with me in a rapid speed of 1000km/hr. =/
thank God that i have my nerddy friend nerding with me, that is why i am not alone :)

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i have rest my case, you are no longer worth my fight.
i am good on my own and for what doesn't kill me makes me stronger. :)
i have exposed the lie that i cannot live without you, i actually can do it very well.
let's not meet till i am ready or if possible, lets not meet again.
for till now, i am very comfortable for the way it is right here, right now...

i have made up my mind to abandon everything :)
abandon my pains, the past and you.
i am living well and good now...
i kind of love my life and is very satisfied :)
BUT i will never be grateful and thankful for the pain that you have caused.
NEVER :)

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thats all folks! :)