Monday, March 30, 2009 / 3:07 AM
PLEASE ME, NOT.i have plenty to say, but i am really sleepy.
it's already three in the morning and i have to wake up early tomorrow for breakfast and after which, remove the stitches!
humans are one complicated yet amazing creation.
that's why i must agree that only God is capable of this creation.
haha.
in the topic of expectations, it's like a dog chasing after it's tail; never ending.
when someone meets your expectation, you will expect more from that person the next time round.
i believe this is very familiar yeah?
for example, your parents expected you to have at least 50 marks for your test and when you got it, they will expect something more than 50 the next time round.
and if you got 50 once again, they will not react the same way as they do when you got it the first time, instead, they will get upset and claim that you are not improving and wants a better grade the next time round.
oh well, nothing wrong with that, seriously.
my point is, desiring to meet one's expectations is one thing, meeting it is another.
oh well, i felt that no one is at fault when it comes to this.
you cannot always expect your expectations to be met.
disappointments come when expectations are not met, isn't it?
however, it's not always that person's fault when you are disappointed.
could it be because you are always increasing your expectations unknowingly?
as for me, i am (still) learning how to handle unwanted disappointments mann.
i am kind of upset with myself for being too irrational at times.
it's really unfair for that person when he/she can't meet my ever increasing expectations.
sometimes, i really need to walk out of fairytales and know that there is simply no one who can meet every of my expectations, especially those unspoken ones.
(but do note that sometimes, adjusting of expectations are necessary.)
it's really amazing how a person can affect you.
awhile ago, you can be sobbing.
awhile later, you can be grinning from ear to ear.
but the truth is...
if there is such person in your life, having the ability or you can say, magic power to make you behave like an idiot; sobbing awhile ago, smiling awhile later and vice visa, this person is one very important person to you.
because the only ones that can swing your mood/day to the extremes are the ones that mean a lot to you, are the ones that you are seeking approval from and whom you love loads.
because you wouldn't even be affected when that someone means nothing.
i have such person in my life, do you?
i treasure that very someone, deeply.i have one serious illness.
i tend to find faults and pick flaws alot.
i always magnify on the flaws rather than strengths.
i tend to forget the good when i saw the bad.
i hope this is not a terminal illness yet, because i believe that there is cure for it.
cure my illness, my Lord. (:
ting is so determined to change in this!
controlling her thoughts well. (:
go go go! (:
1. tings charis