Sunday, April 5, 2009 / 1:19 AM
THENCEFORTHhello world...
ting is (almost) sick now.
having sorethroat and i am uttery tired.
to make things worse, i am having district family day tomorrow, i wonder if i can actually survive through it.
hohoho. xD
ting went to the west 2nd anniversary today.
joined the first service too!! (:
oh mann, i was really really really anticipating to this day! xD
frankly speaking, i felt a bit odd and awkward.
but on the other hand, warmth ; it's as if i am back home.
everything's moving on in an exceedingly fast pace...
i am just a month away and i actually felt really different.
i then realised that i am actually moving on in a real fast speed too.
those tears when i just left are already dried.
i long ago accepted and come to terms with it that i can no longer serve with my beloveds.
i am adapting to my new group, with in mind clearly that i am now serving God in different roles, capascity and scope of influences.
however, when i see the westlanders, my beloved west b and my ex-dmm...
i can't help but to have this (secret) desire to serve God with them again.
serving God with all of them is the most highlighted memories i had.
because i (still) felt that this is my family, this is where i belong.
it has been such a long time that i felt the way i felt today.
and to think back, serving with them is such a joy.
i really miss the previous UL of west b, miss the previous cg member of west dmm.
when i saw the drawings of yunian's card for me...
i was reminded of many many things.
hahaha, now that i do not have them serving alongside with me, i kinda feel pretty much alone.
words cannot really voice out everything that i wanted to say.
but yeah, what to do? i am the one that choses to leave this community that i love so much.
i guess, the pain of making this decision will follow me wherever i go.
i regretted, but i am also glad.
just a little mixture of both. =D
however, i am getting myself ready to win my school mann! (:
i thank God for placing me in such wonderful community (:
i can really say that this community offers me the most condusive environment for me to start afresh.
i can say with all my guts that hope RP is the most loving community that i have ever been.
seriously, i have never been in such bonded, loving and happening group! (:
i am really proud to be part of hope RP. =D
i really hope that i can bring my parents and brother down to the easter service this coming sunday.
and i am hoping to see my own converts after the freshman orientation outreach (:
sound both scary and exciting to me! (:
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many people told me that they really pity Jesus.
especially after watching the passion of the christ, people will tend to think that Jesus is one poor guy that shed loads of bloods!
but i beg to differ.
Jesus ain't pitiful at all.
i felt that those people who felt that Jesus is very pitiful, doesn't really understand that Jesus actually knew what he was doing.
He knew what's coming BUT YET He still chose to went through it.
He is different from any other sacrificed lambs, cause those lambs doesnt even know why they are raptured, and before they know anything, they became food on the table.
yes, they are really pitiful, cause they are so helpless and innocent.
i agree that Jesus is indeed innocent, but his death is a choice made by himself.
He knows what it means to be crucified, He knows the pains.
which is more respecable?
dying without the knowledge of it or knowing everything and yet chosed death?
i respect Jesus deeply because knowing he will go through all these, he still chosed to obey.
HE IS THE TRUE HERO! XD
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the truth is...
there are just so many people on this face of the earth fear mankinds more than the one they should really fear.
and the other truth is...
you can't run or hide.
because your sins will just find you out one day.
even you have successfully hiden your sins, God will not let you off.
He will make many arrangements in such a way that you have no choice but to make a decision, a tough and painful decision.
sometimes, it does really seem that He is playing a prank on us, mankind.
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okay if you manage to read till here, i congrats you!
because you are really one patient person who bothers to read such long post.
hahahaha.
good night world! (my eye lid weigh a ton now)
1. tings charis