Tuesday, April 7, 2009 / 3:15 PM
TWENTY-ONEthis is not the first time that i felt scared by the fact that i am turning twentyone soon.
haha.
when i look to my future, i felt that i still have a long long way to go.
but when i look back, i'm supprised that i had actually went through much.
it seem forever for the clock to finish twentyfour hours when it ticks second by second.
but why is it so amazing that i have actually went through many many many twentyfour hours without noticing that i have already spent twentyone years away?
haha, guess what, my parents are already parents when they were my age.
i have done loads of catch ups for the past few weeks.
and yes, i have more to come!
i met some of my secondary school classmates, some of my old friends etc.
i realised that there are many of my friends, which are of the same age as me are really different from me.
their lifestyle, their stages of life etc.
i ponder and ponder about it, am i being too lagged behind?
when i meet them, i felt as if i am a kid! ):
but to think about it, twentyone doesnt mean i have to club, i have to makeup, grow long hair etc, right?
hahahaha.
this is so true.
that's because i have been mixing too much with people who are still in their teens and not the people of my age.
hahaha, i guess i should start hanging out more with the people of my age and stop being a frog in the well.
but yeah, i actually do prefer the way i am now though (:
my looks and my size doesn't look like my age, but i seriously hope that my inner being will not behave like a kid, i do hope that i behave like my age, or SLIGHTLY younger.
frankly speaking, given my size and look, no matter how i dress, i still won't look mature one lar. (:
hey, you guys can say that i don't look like my age cause i am small in size and my face look younger.
but please do not insult me by telling me i am childish and i behave like a kid.
because people tend to associate my physical appearance with my inner being.
hahaha, i know i am not there yet lar, but just don't insult me (:
i can actually watch R21 in a few months time.
but yet people still checked on me when i watch NC16's show.
not once, but twice.
first, i have to show my IC when i buy the tickets.
then, when i walk into the theater, the ticket boy/girl will stop me and check my IC once again.
haha, see my point?
everyone is busy planning their twentyfirst birthday and i am totally clueless if i should make it big like they do.
i am someone who doesn't like big crowds, but i am so afriad that i will regret for not putting effort in my twentyfirst birthday.
cause twenty-first is like a hoo-haa in our lives right?
and school is reopening soon.
oh dear, i haven't learn driving which i said i wanted to in this holiday.
i am such a slacker ):
i am already started thinking what i want to do after my graduation.
oh well, do pray for me for clear directions in life mann.
but one thing for sure is that, i want to get rid of this retarded poly life ASAP.
finish my year three and all the spastic fyps and be done with it.
one more year, just one more year.
i guess, next year this time, i might be the happiest woman on earth. (:
1. tings charis