Friday, June 5, 2009 / 3:07 AM
ALL IN ONE POSTas stated in my title, i shall blog everything in one post.
i have a hunch that this might be a looonnnggg looonnnggg post. *wink*
now, as in literally now now, i am having a bad sorethroat.. ):
and i am
SUPER (i
bold,
italic,
underline and
highlighted this word, enough emphasis?) reluctant to go for my career coaching and meet my friend tomorrow!! ):
not because i detest them, but ting is lazy and sick.
ROARR.
a few days ago, i was using addiction of drugs as a mataphor to an addiction to someone.
the thought just came across my mind and i started to ponder more about it.
and i realised that it has no difference, in terms of the consequences.
as all of us know, being addicted to something ain't a good thing. (unless you want to talk about God and stuff).
but yeah, generally, it is bad.
a person who is currently addicted on drugs felt the "high" feeling while they are consuming it.
they just couldn't stop popping it into their mouth as they are really addicted.
but to think about it, they always thought that they can't live without drugs, but the truth is, they can't live long if they don't stop consuming it.
as an outsider, we know that they are dumb not to go through cold turkey, we know that they are naive thinking that they NEED the drugs.
but they doesn't know, nothing at all.
but i bet that they know the side effects or rather, the consequences of consuming drugs better than us.
they know that it's harmful to their body, they even experience the pain.
but, they just couldn't stop it.
the only way to overcome this addiction is to go through cold turkey, to turn in and give it all up for the good sake.
and then, they can be free from this addiction; this is freedom.
in the same way...
being addicted to someone is the same.
yes, it sound sick to be addicted to someone... but it's really happening all around.
you simply can die without contacting that someone, you even can't breathe well when you don't see him/her.
it has become a habit to sms/call this person, it has become a routine to report whatever happens to you to this particular someone.
this person soon got the control over your emotions, he/she got the power to influence your decisions making.
you even might go to the extend of giving everything up just to please that someone.
this is addiction, my friend.
you thought that you cannot survive without this person, you thought that you need him/her.
you know very well what kind of damage you are bringing into yourself when you refuse to let go, but yet nothing has been done.
but hey, think about it...
isnt it the same as the addiction to drugs?
drugs addicts will always think that they need drugs to live on when we know clearly that they can actually move on with life happier without it, in the same way... it applies to addiction to someone!! (:
to give up someone or something that you are really addicted to...
it's not as hard as we imagine..
i hope so!
just be brave and choose to go through the cold turkey..
and you will be set free from your addiction; the freedom that you wanted most.
aren't you sick of being addicted to someone and your emotions will fluctuate like nobody's business?
i think, even before you are drown by your own tears, you are already dead from intense emotional fatigue.
hohoho.
but no worries okay?
i am doing good!!
i blog this up because it's purely my train of thoughts (:
don't read too much into it xD
recently, i have been catching up with my old friend.
it has been 8 years that we are friends.
hahaha, it feels really good to come back together and hopefully, do life together (:
i felt really bad and upset that i have been missing out too much from her life.
i pray that i can be a better friend and mend back what i have been missing out (:
i am glad that God brought such a good and close friend into my life.
sometimes, life can be hardgoing...
but friends (including my beloved Jesus) are the ones that keep you going through difficult times (:
yeah, my beloved friend.. friends for life, yo!!
i mean it okay!! xD
hah, my new caregroup structure is out.
okay... i am fine.. (:
though i don't really like it.. (to be honest)
i am even on the verge to tears when i got the news.
but yeaps, God's plan.
hais, i knew it actually.
but i have thought through it already...
i will accept this plan, as in really accept it with glad and sincere heart!! (:
but i shall not disclose why and what i have thought through...
so ask me personally if you are
kpo interested (:
i will be more than happy to share. xD
till here, goodbye folks!! (:
it's late and i shall sleep REAL soon!!
i am seriously anticipating for that idiot to come over tomorrow morning!! (:
BUT i am anticipating,
NOT for any of my activities after that idiot bid me goodbye in the afternoon ):
1. tings charis