GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO CARRY ON.
Sunday, July 26, 2009 / 6:03 PM
hello world.
i apologized for being so emotional these days.
if you HAPPEN to worry, i am sorry.
if not, then it's fine.
hahaha.
i just felt unappreicated at times.
but yuppps, i guess it's time for me to stop living in my own world.
i can't find joy or any meaning in whatever i am doing or ought to do in the future, still.
but no matter what, i know in times like this, sticking to God will never be a wrong choice.
oh well, i am tired to live for anyone already.
i guess, it's time for me to lead my own kind of life.
i dislike living in the approval of people, dislike being emotional attached too.
that's because not only i will hurt the people with my insensivity, i will hurt myself big time too...
living for the audience of one.
how true is that.
many times, i made decisions to move on but i failed.
because never once, i am convicted about my decision nor my stand is firm.
somehow, i might still fail this time round too; the decision of moving on without you.
sigh, what am i suppose to do?
i have every reasons to hate, to be bitter about anything and everything.
i have every reasons to quit and just vanish.
but i simply have no reasons not to move on in life and hurt myself this much.
most importantly, the last thing that i wanna see is that me hurting people because i am hurt.
if i choose not to move on and choose to stuck in this cycle again, you will be hurt.
Lord, give me the strength to be firm in what i have decided.
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i will be having steamboat with my two sheep tmr! (:
hope nothing goes wrong, if not i will kill myself already!
hahahaha.
btw, this is so interesting...
my name is
shi ting, melody's
shi hui and joanne's
shi min.
heh, the three of us have similar names! <3s
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i don't know where to go and what to do after graduation.
i am moving on to the next phase of my life soon.
scary!
just a few months before graduation.. oh my oh my.
1. tings charis