THE WORLD IS MY STAGE.
Friday, July 31, 2009 / 1:34 AM
in life, we are playing different roles in different people's life.
say for example, you might be THE world in someone's life but on the other hand, you can just be a random passer by A in another's life.
there are various roles that i ought to play; to some people, my role ain't important at all but however to some, my role means a lot to them.
i am pretty sure what is the weightage i have in the circles of people that i am invloved with; be it in a big way or the other.
on the other hand, different people plays different roles in my life too.
some simply means nothing to me, but some have the ability to influence my decision or to manipulate my emotions and the list goes on.
there are too many people who wants to know about my life and to listen to my story.
some did this out of responsibility, some out of their busy-body-ness and some, out of love, care and concern.
i really appreciate my friends who sincerly love and care about me, they surely did make a difference in my life.
people are usually the number one concern when i have to make a decision.
sometimes, i got really tired of this as well.
hah, but i know.. life is more than myself, right?
as much as i strive to play my role well in all of your lives, i would want to have a balance too.
ultimately, playing my role well as the the child of God should be my top priority. (:
i have come to a point of life where i realised, everyone's living in denial.
oh well, i got the inspiration from jency as well.
haha.
alright, i seriously agree with this and i can't deny that i am one of them.
people enter and exit through the door of your life.
how many people and who are actually the one that stays and not find their way out?
people can only enter into your life as far as you allow them to.
ting, who can you blame when you've set so much, so much boundaries?
is the excuse of no one will understand, they will still end up preching the usual stuffs that i already knew or i can't and don't know how to voice out still valid?
sometimes, i don't like people to know too much about me is because, i don't want to be responsible after i told them everything and also, i don't want them to be responsible for me too.
i have tried to be frank, to be honest... but all i got in return is a stronger conviction not to share too deep or too much in the future.
irony, heh?
i hope that people wouldn't come to me and tell me they love me when they are not prepared to be responsible for what they've promised.
i hate people who made promises or say the words and then take them back.
there are certainly a few friends whom i know they love and care.
and i am thankful for them!! (:
it's not your fault, it's mine.
it's me who can't pass the test of being transparent and honest about myself.
withdraw, withdraw.
on the lighter note..
i am glad that i have met up with jency and christine today!!
hey, thank you for being so concern with my life and it's deeply appreciated (:
with you girls, i know that i am never alone (:
thanks! xD
and i am very worried about what am i going to do after my graduation! ):
and i am so not looking forward to my tomorrow.
sigh, i seriously find life is so meaningless like that.
always in the routine of having blues and stuff.
God, i need joy in my life like seriously!
if God were to love people through people...
then some people just protayed God's love in a real lousy manner.
shit those people.
if i am evil enough.. i will name all those people out.
but i shouldn't!
that's all folks.
public relations class again, argh.
i don't even know my classmates ):
1. tings charis