DRAMA MAMA
Tuesday, August 25, 2009 / 1:31 AM
oh well, i decided to blog before i sleep.
i have no idea why i am so reluctant to head to my bed and end my today.
prolly i am so afraid of my tomorrow.
fearful, i really am.
many worse case scenarios breeze walked through my head.. and they freaked me off indeed =/
oh well, IN GOD I TRUST!
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well, i watched many dramas, cause this is my favourite pastime!
but little did i expect that my life would be such drama mama too.
first, both my parents are re-married..
so i have a step mum and a step dad.
how do i feel about it?
hah, your brain will be too finite to comprehend..
now the worse nightmare has began..
my step mum is pregnant!
the baby boy will meet the world approximately january next year.
think about it, our age gap would be 22 years!
and... i actually have a 同父异母 (same father, different mother) brother!
when he is primary one, i will be 29 year old.
tell me about it, how am i suppose to feel right now?
haha, irony.. what an irony ):
my family is becoming like that... this is how selfish adults are.
not sparing a thought for their kids.
i am pointing my fingers to those parents that divorce leaving their kids in such agony.
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after tomorrow, i will be one happy kid.
shouting hip hip hurray to the world and refuse to sleep and wake up early!
hahahaha, many exciting things awaitng at the month of september, my favourite month! <3s
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if you guys had heard about the pathways to God...
you would roughly understand what i am going to say.
my top 2 pathways to God is activistic pathway and contemplation pathway..
it simply means that i got most connected to God when there is war to win, moutain to climb, a battle ahead!
hah, some say this is one crazy pathway.
but yeaps, it's so true..
i know i shouldn't blame on anything or anyone..
but i really need this kind of stuffs to keep myself alive.
regarding my contemplation pathway, i am always contemplating..
my role now is to feed my thoughts with God's food! <3s.
i seriously need a boost in my spiritual walk with God, for real!
to think about it, i got so close to God is usually when God throw me into an impossible mission or dying land.. hahaha maybe this is my kind of environment..
hah, provided i am keen and interested.
God, fan my passion, fan the fire in me, if not.. i am so.. dead meat.
my eyes will bling* when there's one annoying sheep or a land where everyone has given up hope on.
i love challenges! (:
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hah, i begin to realise that...
it's a common thing for me to feel discourage and frustrated at least once a week..
when i fix my schedule with ... you.
don't know what else i can do..
and i wonder what's God's plan behind this.
but i want to give my best shot (:
use me, lord.
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graduation soon...
what to do next?
and my 21st's coming!
i am turning into an adult soon.
haha!
1. tings charis