NOTHING BEATS HOLIDAYS!
Sunday, August 30, 2009 / 3:50 AM
if nothing goes wrong, i guess this would be the most happening five weeks of my year (:
i am anticipating with many things ahead!
but the sad thing is... i am broke and fat..
hey if you are wondering why am i so random.. i tell you, i am not!
hahaha, my number one concern now is... why am i so broke and fat T.T
i seriously hope that God will just drop some money from heaven and place it somewhere obvious so that i can see and pick them up.
this is so toally not a joke; this is how desperate i am.
haha.
there are truck loads of catch-ups for me to do in this holiday.
it requires money and ganing of fats again but oh well, i guess this is all worth it, right?
HAHA...
it's indeed true that friends are really valueable, because out of the billions and billions of people on this face of the earth, God placed the both of you together to be friends and do life together.
there's a chinese saying that goes "能做朋友也是一种缘分". (to be able to be friends, it's also a kind of fate)
though i don't really and literally believe in this fate thing, but it's really amazing how two person meet and eventually, being part of your life (:
i am learning (and still learning) to treasure all my friends by making effort to be avaliable for them! (:
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i was reminded of one very important thing...
ting, it's okay when you tried but yet seen no results.
hah, sound so irony but i guess, there are just some things in life that you won't reap even after putting your 101% of effort; those are the things that you simply can't do anything about it.
but surely, giving up is not the option... i know (:
Jesus, the perfect shepherd has one of His sheep denied Him three times and another, betrayed Him for those pathetic amount of money.
His sheep did that to Him and judas fell away from God despite having THE PERFECT SHEPHERD.
didn't Jesus do a great job shepherding them? He is a lousy shepherd that doesnt know the needs of His sheep?
i beg to differ.
even the perfect one has people going against him, even the most loving one has been betrayed.
i guess, in situations like this, it's not the shepherd's fault, for sure.
it takes two hands to clap, isn't it?
i think, it's time for me to allow some space and air to breathe...
i shouldn't take it too hard on myself when things doesn't improve, a single bit.
i need to come to an understanding that i am not any wonder woman, there are people who cannot even appreciate and love the perfect one, more ever, it is me, the most unworthy vessle.
on the lighter note...
i am really thankful that melody is growing well in God (:
haha, there's loads of change in her and i am proud to participate in her life and her walk with God.
i felt really inadequate but here i am, use me. (:
i hope and really hope, to be a better shepherd for both of my sheep. <3s.
i don't want to shortchange anyone of them (:
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Question: can a someone with an unrepented sin and still refuses to repent be a leader?
no offence but i seriously think that if you love your people, repent.
if you refuse to repent and change, then don't lead, don't be a coward not to voice it out because your people deserve a better leader and not a bottleneck of their growth.
what happens if you don't let go? yourself? your poor people?
i know i am being critical, but i wouldn't want to be under someone that doesnt please God and refuse to obey God completely... what about you?
so what if that person has great skills or personality? so that if that person work really hard...
if a leader that shortchange you with his/her life, this person is not a good leader (:
PS: I AM NOT REFERRING TO ANYONE, THIS IS JUST MY TRAIN OF THOUGHTS, SERIOUSLY!
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hah, i am really imperfect, that's why i can be really disappointed with myself at times.
1. tings charis