HE VISITED MY HEART TODAY.
Thursday, November 5, 2009 / 2:42 AM
i wonder why, today is such a tiring day for not only me, but to many.
i was duper reluctant to make my appearance in school today, not because i overslept or i am sick...
but i simply have no idea why i don't even have the energy to open my eyes, not mentioning to sit up.
i have to morning call my dearest and i held my cell on my hands and went into deep coma without calling.
hahaha, mann.. i am seriously fatigue.
ask me not, because i have no idea why too. =/
but such a princess like me overcame the bed monster and made my grand appearance in school.
*pat my shoulders* hahahaha.
there's no huge thing or significant incident happening today..
lesson was bored as expected.
you will be so wrong if you were to guess that my day will end in an expected manner..
i can say that nothing huge or significant happened physically...
but He visited my heart today.
this is more than enough to cause significant changes to my life or rather, attitude towards everything.
i have no intention to elaborate the details but i am more than willing to share if you ask (:
hang on, that's provided if i am comfortable (:
anyhow, i've done things that i never thought myself to be doing, i've said things that i never thought myself would be saying too.
all in all, i obeyed and humbled myself.
indeed, obedience bring blessings (:
He moved in amazing ways...
and with this i have came to realise, i wasn't that angry or upset as i thought...
maybe i had already let go or rather, knows His heartbeat.
because i know his heartbeat, my heart was broken like how his was broken.
i am really touched when i was awaken, knowing how foolish i was.
i had a great time shepherding my two darlings today.
i am seriously anticipating for more!
i am already looking forward for the next meeting!
hahahaa.
i want to change.
i want to be a better person for Him.
i want to do something to this dying land.
oh mann, my heart is beating so fast that i couldn't catch up with it's pace.
in a short bus ride, it allows me to reflect my day, my attitude and the list goes on..
my heart of stone has been replaced.
omg, where am i going to begin with?
all i can say is.. use me and guide me.
i may and i will still be disagreeing with many factors.
but even if i feel that i am really right, i will handle things will a gentle spirit.
i should stop being angry, stop grumbling, stop being pissed and irritated and start to do something!
i felt that even if i were to be angry for a good cause, my bad spirit has defeated everything.
a gentle spirit, tings!
i want to change and create a revival..
if i can.
i will do my best! (:
i hope i will never forget that He paid a visit to my heart today.
because i know that the tendency of me being pissed again is HIGH.
rawr, never ending testings.
so people, help me lar..
help me by increasing your EQ a little; stop provoking me!
hahahaha!
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step by step, thats what i wanna say to myself.
whatever i want to do, i will do it one step by another...
many things to deal with myself, but i know that i have taken a great step today.
and i am glad (:
but there are somethings that will never change.
princess' princess 241207 <3s.
no need to elaborate, you should know who visited my heart today, right?
it's none other than the Almighty (:
1. tings charis