IT'S MY LIFE.
Monday, March 15, 2010 / 1:28 AM
oh wells, i can't sleep for nuts when i have to wake up damn early tmr.
i feel kind of weird now.
and i know not why.
probably because i am too excited for tmr's first day of work?
or is my heart trying to play a prank on me again?
it's hard to interpret how you feel at times, because heart is a very deceitful and annoying thing.
i am entering into a new stage of life now!
i have many many things in mind that i wanna do!
but my cash doesn't allow me to do everything once and for all :(
first, i wanna get my itouch!
second, i wanna get my new phone!
third, i wanna learn driving!
forth, i wanna get a tattoo! i wanna tattoo "dedicated" on my back!
fifth, i wanna treat my important people to a meal!
sixth, i wanna SHOP!
last but not the least, i want to cultivate the habit of reading Christian literature and have my shepherding with Jesus regularly!
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i have come to realised that people are made differently.
people express differently and people react differently.
but it doesn't mean that they don't care.
for so long, i have been depressed and angry over everything.
but yes, nothing positive will ever come out from overthinking.
for the nth time i am saying, i want freedom for all these entanglements.
i am getting back on track, bit by bit.
i cannot deny that i am still in pain, but i know... i must take responsible of my life.
i must not take everything too seriously and ending up inflicting pain to myself emotionally and mentally.
rawr. tings, you think too much and you should stop it!
i must lead my life separately from you, from now on.
sometimes, it's a no choice kind of affair to move on.
letting go is not always a willing choice.
but i have come to accept the fact that, it's impossible.
so... lead my life well and put a smile on God's face then!
it's my dream to be a simple christian that can bring blessings to the people around me. :)
yeah, jiayou tings!
1. tings charis