I'M DONE TRYING. IF YOU WANT ME IN YOUR LIFE, LET ME KNOW.
Saturday, June 5, 2010 / 5:47 PM
it has been almost two and a half years since i know the real tings.
opened my eyes to see a brand new and cruel world.
like everyone knows, we can never, never predict the future.
many years ago, i would never, never expect myself going through life like this.
this is the exciting but risky part of life, everyday is a surprise; you can do nothing to stop whatever that are coming.
neither do we have any power to amend anything in the past.
i detest and regret, but i accept the fact that everything happens for a reason.
i am always talking and asking for freedom.
yes, i want to be set free.
but actually, i am the one that chained and forbids myself from freedom.
the decision lies in me, am i not right?
i wonder if anyone would truly understands what it means to struggle.
struggling is dilemmatic , struggling is when your mind and your heart couldn't synchronize, not a single bit.
struggling is when your intention and your behavior doesn't tally and struggling is pain.
struggling is you knowing what is right but doesn't have the strength to do so.
struggling is knowing what you cannot do but you keep on doing it.
i reckoned that when one is struggling, it is almost impossible to self-help.
help, help.. anyone?
y'know why is it difficult for people to move on in life?
that's simply because they are still clinging onto their past.
what was good, what was bad, what was said, what was done...
we know that it can never come back anymore, no way.
assurance that was made, promises that was sealed...
it is all history.
time passes by but it is possible for people to stop moving and advancing.
that is why people aways say "let go".
because the only key to a promising future is to let go of your painful past.
i can't advance into my future because i have been living in my past.
i felt that... it is really time for me to let go of my past :)
i know i said this for the zillion times already....
but who knows, after me saying for a few more times.. one fine day i will really succeed?
i will keep trying and keep my sanity :)
hah.
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你走了太久一定很累
他错了不该你来面对
离开他就好就算了心情很干脆
他其实没有那么绝对
远一点你就看出真伪
离开他不等于你的世界会崩溃
转个弯你还能飞
就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈
他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后为自己醉
每段感情都非常珍贵
他的好你就放在心扉
记得有个人曾让你那样的心醉
你笑了照亮夜幕的黑
什么梦都不比你的美
多少年以后想起他还有些体会
那些你已无所谓
他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后管他是谁
1. tings charis