THE OVERDUE "GOODBYE".
Thursday, June 10, 2010 / 1:38 AM
But still, you are just another 'come and go' in my life.
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i randomly read those crazy notes i did once upon a time in facebook.
haha, when i was in rp, i was freaking bored and spammed loads of notes.
hey, it was in the trend then, okay!
as i read most of them, i realised that my life has changed a lot.
if i were to redo all the notes again, i bet almost all the answers would be different.
i used to watch movies almost once a week, midnight shows.
i used to chat on phone every night before i sleep.
i used to address someone as noobcake, my lover and etc.
i used to always have someone to make me smile...
i used to look forward to everyday because i will have someone dining with me after my long day.
i used to get excited over stupid things like coconut, secret codes and... yada yada.
i used to love sundays alot, because it all begins with a lazy sunday...
i used to term myself as double instead of single. haha.
i used to text alot, with noobcake.
the most dreadful thing to me before was school, and nothing else seems more depressing.
i used to be confident that i am loved and needed.
i always get a good meal after being upset, did i mention "i used to"?
i used to be happy.
my life has change a lot...
i almost forgot that i used to be such a happy person.
where my greatest depression comes from school and biggest problem comes from ministry.
now, all these are like peanuts to me.
i no longer watch movies every week.
i no longer chat on phone.
i no longer look forward to everyday.
i no longer have a good meal after i got upset.
i no longer have someone to make my heart smile.
i no longer have my noobcake.
i am no longer happy...
i am no longer loved and no longer needed.
dwelling in the past will only hinder me from moving on in life.
oh well, its a waste that you are just like the others, you came and you went.
life can never move backwards...
let bygones be bygones.
at least, i was happy for 2 years.
though damn cui but yeah, no regrets :)
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for now....
i am on my own....
i have got nothing to feel sorry for because i wasnt the one that has change...
the one that chose to dump all the happy memories is not me.
i remembered and do reminisce them at times...
but hah, i guess.... it was all already forgotten by the other shareholder.
now, just let me live in my own world...
together with my Jesus under the coconut tree....
my prolly another 40 years of life is going to be exciting!
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the ones who hurt you the most, are the ones who promised they wouldn't.
1. tings charis