A PARADIGM SHIFT OF THOUGHTS.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010 / 2:27 AM
离开是想要被挽留; 如果开口那只是我要来的温柔..
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my head hurts now, it feels overloaded.
it seems like my brain has been processing a lot of thoughts today; too much of it, i guess.
many times, i am sick and tired of thinking...
like what i always say... overthinking will lead to nowhere and it is usually concluded negatively.
oh God, i just want to captive my thoughts and make it pleasing to you.
but it is never easy, this i don't deny.
i hope that my brain and mind didnt work (too much) for nothing today.
to think about it, it requires only a few seconds to change a person completely.
we called it a paradigm shift of thoughts, if i am not wrong :)
i know not how to explain what the hell are all these about...
but in short, it just took a snap of a finger for someone to change.
a change in behavior, lifestyle or whatever... it all begins with a thought, a very convicted one.
like a moment ago, you may be depressed, but one enlightening thought or any words that came across you that really makes a lot of sense can impact you and have your life changed!
okay, if you get it, you get it... if not.. i really have no idea how to explain myself already!
i think i had this "paradigm-shift-of-thoughts" today.
or at least, i am somewhere near there.
i have come in terms with many things.
but the sad thing is, i somehow felt that my moment of "getting my feet up" would be short.
back on track, i was saying that my thoughts are pretty sort out now.
i can't say that i am already there, up there... but i guess that i am making the first step?
hah. no idea.
it is one painful process, i swear.
i tried and then i failed, i tried again, and then i failed again...
God knows how many times i have been in this routine.
God, it should be ending soon right?
i might fail again this time round, i know...
but yes, i know i will make it someday.
step by step is the key i guess.
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actually, i am left with no choice but to do so....
actually, i would still turn back if you are willing to change yourself back for me, but i know you won't.
actually, you have no idea what you have turned me into.
actually, i know i don't need you as much as i thought.
actually, i know that its already over 4 months ago.
actually, i know that this is not what i want for life.
actually, i am a coward who wants to let go but i have no courage to do so.
actually, i hide because i dare not face.
actually, you mean the world to me, but i meant nothing to you... so i have to shut my door and find my new world.
actually, i sucked.
actually, only God can help me.
and last but not the least, actually i have to, i really have to practice self control. :)
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when i am gone, don't expect me back.
you forced me to. :)
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yes, so all in all....
in order to change whatever you need to change today...
it all begins with a thought!
but the challenge is....
how to convict yourself with your thought...
once you are really convicted, ah ha! your life change!!
tings, this is what you really need... :)
btw tings, you are really annoying when you are emotional!
omg, i think even santa claus cannot stand you!
so, for the sake of the world, tings you better CHANGE.
1. tings charis