WHEN I RUN & HIDE, WOULD YOU FOLLOW & SEEK?
Monday, June 14, 2010 / 7:46 PM
It is really really a very very turn off when I was reminded that my
precious two weeks holiday has bid me goodbye. :(
my monday's blue got even blue-er especially after a 'problem-free' cruise trip.
You know what?
It was on purpose that I have never activated my auto roaming.
That's simply because I feel really good to escape from my reality world,
even if it's only for a short, short while.
I love singpore, no doubt :)
but it's my reality world that I wanna run away from.
So, it's never the issue of the country or place,
it's me.
How i wish I can got stuck in the cruise forever, get fat and die there...
Hah, foolish, ain't i?
If you know me well enough,
you would know that I am actually far away from being strong.
People always have an impression that my nature of dealing with problems is by confronting them.
but little did they expect that my first instinct towards everything is to hide and avoid first.
Yes, maybe I would still confront my problems at the end of the day...
But do you know that it is because I am left with no choice but to do so?
If not... I would avoid forever.
Haha, I always think that by ignoring and hiding myself well,
I would not be affected and I will be okay in the end...
Oh well, how true is that?
I don't know.
Now, I really wish that I can leave Singapore for a few years...
I need a getaway to unwind and to hide.
I dread to face everything.
i dread to work,
i dread to think and dread to be responsible of my own life.
I need to press the re-start button to start my life anew.
I need to re-learn how to appreciate the air I breathe,
to smile and have a light heart,
to skip and whistle as I walk and appreciate the beautiful scenery around me,
to lift my head up and spread my arms exclaiming how beautiful it is,
to live and breathe. :)
that's why I say, I want a getaway.
to have a real rest, a more than just a physical rest...
And get myself ready to face life routines again.
In short, I need to recharge and refresh my soul and mind :)
More holidays please!
No need to check my phone,
no need to work...
No worries...
All I need to do is to only play and have fun!
Woots!