I WANT TO GO TO MY PROMISE LAND OF NO PAIN, NO TEARS.
Thursday, July 8, 2010 / 4:47 PM
there is this special someone, that i realised that i am stuck with.
a friend that i cannot lose no matter how hard i try.
even when this friend of mine is out of my sight, out of my life.... there is still a connection to this friend.
this friend of mine never move out of my heart no matter how hard i try.
at the end of all my decisions and extreme acts, i will still give in because of this friend.
please do not guess what i am talking about but....
i felt that friendship is something amazing...
since i cannot don't have this friend in my life, why not i welcome this friend back to my life?
i am fearful of pain and i felt that i might face pain again...
but this time round, i will involve God in this friendship.
i believe that God will make it right when i follow His way.
friends for life and special and top priority friends for life.
i hope it is the same to this special friend toooo.
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i remember when i was in secondary school, i used to be a fan of neo pets...
i played almost everyday until my bestie heck my account and steal all my things.
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
so i got so sian-ed and stop playing...
when i grew older, i played pets society, cafe world, restaurant city and yada yada...
i won't say that i got addicted, but i will play them everyday.
and soon, i got bored of them and i stop playing them too.
when i got my itouch, i love playing angry bird...
i even spent money to buy its full version!
i love tap tap and spent money to but the songs too!
but not so much though :)
now, i am bored of it and never play them again :(
i fell in love with zombie farm and i spent abt 2 bucks buying one brain and blue tomb stone.
hahahaha, i play everyday and i love it.
and guess what?
i am bored of this game now and i seldom play already!
LOL
wondering why the hell did i blog this?
because i realised that everyone will eventually got bored of something that they do or play everyday.
this is why trends are ever changing, new games, gadgets and more are always launching new products.
but hey, will anyone got bored of their lives too?
frankly speaking, i am damn bored and sick of life.
no worries, its not an emo kind of thing that i make this statement....
but logically speaking, this is so true.
if you read my blog long enough...
i once said that i am like a turtle...
i hide in my shell so that i can protect myself.
maybe death is another or a better way for me to protect myself against the pain of life.
i dont know?? :)
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anyway, if i can.. i will seek opportunities to go overseas for a few years.
oh how sad it is to be stuck in this small island for life :(
hahahaa. :)
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for the first time in my life, i am not looking forward to my birthday....
this birthday is going to be a lonely one.
for the past 7 years of my life, i have my dmm, my pple celebrating for me...
i always look forward to how they will plan it.
and also for the previous 2 years, i have been spending it happily with....someone i treasure.
but now when everything is back to square, back to that empty box...
honestly, i am scared.
scared of special occasions like my birthday, christmas, new year and blah blah blah.
so scary, so hollow.
sometimes i wonder, why people concern so much.
happy can already what.
but i know the world doesnt work this way.
hais, so i shall give in to life, to a cruel kind of life.
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thats about it!
may something magical happen and my life would change for the better!
1. tings charis