MISTAKE OR TRUE LOVE?
Tuesday, November 29, 2011 / 3:06 AM
It was said that to fall in love is a kind of fate.
i believe in this saying because out of billions of people, you fell for this one person.
isn't this fate?
but i don't understand and feel sorry for those who fell so deeply but yet gained nothing.
if falling in love is also a kind of fate, then why God, they can't be together?
if they are not meant to be together, then why God, did you allow for her to fall for him?
or is this just a human error?
if it's human error, this is such a painful mistake.
gosh, i am tired.
tired of this guessing game.
sometimes i am angry.
angry that why am i the only party going bonkers.
i say, i believe in God's plan.
probably i have no patience and this is a test for me.
this is a game where no matter how anxious i am, there is nothing else i can do except for keeping my cool.
this is a drama where i am starring, a show that i have to put on.
to act as if i don't care, to act as if i don't give a damn.
i can't say that i am not a good actress.. because i gave myself away.. many times.
but hey, i will improve on this and make sure none will expose my mask.
24, my limit.
or maybe it's not.
God knows best.
i have no idea how far and how much i can stretched myself.
God knows best.
i am just sick,
sick of finding excuses and reasons for you.
not for your sake, but mine.
simply because it can make me feel better, so much better.
self-control...
especially in my thoughts.
how hard can this be.
you ain't worth it at all.
but why, why why.
if this is not love, then what is it?
what if its my my human error?
how much am i going to pay for my this mistake?
but then again,
if its not you, then who?
gonna end this by saying....
it is all in God's wonderful plan.
and all i need to do...
is not to be worried about it and...
SERVE HIM WHOLEHEARTEDLY.
and he will find a vanness and place it in my life.
For all good things will happen to those who loves him.
thank you Lord :)
1. tings charis